This is the space to practice and play with creating a new imprint. 🪄The chance to move differently. To question what you know AND stand firmly in your truth. ⛰️The #1 question women ask: "What if I don't want to touch / be touched?"Then don't! Let this be the space where you practice daring to say "no". Where you say the things you can't in normal society. Where you come in touch with the deeper need underneath the "no". The sense of not being safe to open, the sense of not being attuned to, the mark left on your soul by all those moments you were touched without love.Healing does not come from avoiding the uncomfortable, but from looking deeper, feeling fully and choosing that THIS TIME you will move differently 🤸‍♀️

No one can hand you your worth, you need to claim it!For me, this journey truly started when I gained weight after a break-up, and the eating disorder I used to cope. (For those attempting to diet, ironically, it often leads to weight gain.)Breaking up with someone who had been such a central part of my life, sent me spiraling in so many ways. And now that I gained weight, I thought I was unattractive. The thoughts that accompanied this were fascinating: 'No one will ever love me. I will be alone forever.'The parallel of what I attracted was uncanny... the most unattractive man I could imagine bluntly told me that he did not find my body type attractive. And I found myself scrambling to gain his approval (wtf, right?!)I can't pinpoint when this shifted, but after years of working on my worth diligently, I found men that I would have previously considered unattainable pursuing me.One of the practices that helped me connect to my self-worth is lap dance. And I am not alone in that; here are some snippets of what other women have experienced:"I just went through a break-up and this made me feel beautiful again.""Since going through trauma, I have not been able to have s.x with my partner. I am so grateful to have these lap dance tools, because it is a safe way for us to connect sensually.""After being violated, this is my way to feel my power again. I decide what happens and when. I take back my power."

Why use lapdance as a tool for sensual discovery?!

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Your pussy is the portal. Gateway to the universe. In the past she has been used for pleasure, profit and power.

A while ago there was an incident in the zouk scene. A teacher had placed a woman's hand on his penis during a dance. I witnessed all sorts of outrage from our Dutch zouk scene. Most of the people speaking up were men. The general consensus was that this man needed to be banished and handled. And that women needed to be protected by eliminating any chance of such a thing ever happening again!

When teaching yoni yoga or tantra I often receive questions about numbness, usually inside of the vagina.

When I first started with Sensual Dance I fused together exotic floorwork with tantra and yoni yoga. During this experiment I had many happy accidents where I found more depth in sensuality then I had expected.

Since I get asked this question a lot I will attempt to answer. However it is such a personal experience that I would like you to bare in mind that tantra might end up meaning something completely different to you!

I developed Conscious Lapdance for the pleasure of the dancer. Women have been conditioned at large to be in "pleasing-mode", during their interactions, in their appearance and sadly even the way they make love.

As someone who was effortlessly skinny and gained weight in a stressful time I fell into the pitfall of dieting and created a loop that I would describe as disordered eating, maybe even an eating disorder. I tried crazy fasts, because they promised good health at a time that I was very ill. I ate raw vegan for over a month, before having my first ever serious binge. Dieting and excessive exercise brought my mind and body into a deep state of confusion that lasted for 5 years, and it was the very thing that kept me at a higher weight!