** Trigger warning **

Your pussy is the portal. Gateway to the universe. In the past she has been used for pleasure, profit and power.

A while ago there was an incident in the zouk scene. A teacher had placed a woman's hand on his penis during a dance. I witnessed all sorts of outrage from our Dutch zouk scene. Most of the people speaking up were men. The general consensus was that this man needed to be banished and handled. And that women needed to be protected by eliminating any chance of such a thing ever happening again!

When teaching yoni yoga or tantra I often receive questions about numbness, usually inside of the vagina.

When I first started with Sensual Dance I fused together exotic floorwork with tantra and yoni yoga. During this experiment I had many happy accidents where I found more depth in sensuality then I had expected.

Since I get asked this question a lot I will attempt to answer. However it is such a personal experience that I would like you to bare in mind that tantra might end up meaning something completely different to you!

I developed Conscious Lapdance for the pleasure of the dancer. Women have been conditioned at large to be in "pleasing-mode", during their interactions, in their appearance and sadly even the way they make love.

As someone who was effortlessly skinny and gained weight in a stressful time I fell into the pitfall of dieting and created a loop that I would describe as disordered eating, maybe even an eating disorder. I tried crazy fasts, because they promised good health at a time that I was very ill. I ate raw vegan for over a month, before having my first ever serious binge. Dieting and excessive exercise brought my mind and body into a deep state of confusion that lasted for 5 years, and it was the very thing that kept me at a higher weight!